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I’m so comfused

So, I finally decided, since I spend so much time at work, I need to do something that I connect with.  I emailed human resources and explained that I am not connecting with this position and that I would much rather give this opportunity to someone that does connect with it. I asked what the policy is regarding applying for another in house position, time frames, etc.  I thoroughly checked out our P & P, but was unable to find anything on my own.  They never responded. It’s been 2 weeks. I saw my manger has open positions in pediatrics and thought, ok, well that is closer to what I do like and emailed her about shifting to that position and working back up in labor and delivery. I saw her send out multiple emails over the last day and a half, but she did not respond to me. 

Ive always heard it so expensive to lose staff because of how much money and time goes into training them.  I e heard that it’s cheaper to keep staff at the same place, even if they move to another unit because of things like learning the computer system, starting their benefits, etc.   Despite this, no one really seems interested in keeping me. 

I’ve started applying other places. I’m kind of sad because I’ve always loved this hospital and always wanted to work here. It’s not the first time they’ve done this me. I’m never good enough for them. I had applied for an informatics nursing position and was told, despite my computer background, I didn’t get interveiwed because I didn’t volunteer enough on their day shift committees.  I work night shift. I sleep during the day. How, exactly, does my volunteering show you what my skill is, how proficient I am with computers, data retrievel, system maintenance, and education of users, etc?  Most of these meetings are simply sitting a room for 2 hours listening to management outline what they will be looking at in the way of problems and initiatives over the next couple weeks so you can update your unit. That’s it.

It’s so confusing and disappointing. On the plus side, after being told, over and over and over, (I think a higher power has been trying to tell me something, but I’ve been too stubborn to listen until now) that I’m good at educating, I’ve applied for an RN educator position through the state .  Please, wish me luck. I’m tired of the dark, pulsating adrenaline I feel when we get an emergency.  There’s a reason I’m not a stunt woman!

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Beaten Down

It’s been over 2 years since I posted. I wish I was in a better place. I wish I was happy. I moved from the tele unit to labor and delivery. It is soooo not for me. I am very unhappy.  I can do the job, it’s not that.  The department has been very welcoming, supportive, and accepting.  But there is this deep unhappiness everytime I think about going into work. Babies and mommies and their possible life threatening issues are so much worse than elderly life threatening issues. I don’t want to do it anymore. I want to crawl in a hole and stop adulting. Is that possible? Please. 

Possessed

I can’t believe how long it’s been since I’ve been here.  It’s weird, but so nice, to know this is still here.  I’ve taken a break from school to switch employers.  I am still at Genesis but I’m working on an as needed basis.  My full-time job is now at a hospital, working full-time in their cardiac/telly unit.  I am so very excited and happy.  This is what I wanted when I decided to be a nurse.  Wish me luck, please?

Also, I think something has taken my body over in the last couple days.  I started writing again.  In the last 3 days, I’ve written 4006 words.  Talk about a whirlwind.  I can’t remember the last time I wrote.  I know the last fiction I completed was in 2011, before I entered the clinical portion of nursing school.  4 years.  And they flew by so fast.  And I know there were days where my goal back then really was 100 words a day and I was happy with that.  Which is way I am so shocked that I’ve written so much in the last few days.  I didn’t realize how much I missed it.

It might be junk when all is said and done, but I’m having fun.

What have you written today?

Hi-Hoe, Hi-Hoe

I am back in the land in of the living.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my job.  Yet, a year of 2nd and 3rd shifts, of not seeing my family, and of being awake when the rest of world is sleeping, has taken its toll.  I did not think adjusting back to a day-shift schedule would wear me out so much.  Mostly, I’m writing a blog entry because I need a break from school.  I am pursuing my bachelor’s in nursing while working full time.  I know I said this in nursing school, but my brain is mush.  To top it off, my computer died.  The fan quit and the hard drive is almost to the point where the heat has melted it.  I could pull it apart, replace the heat sink, and the goop, etc, but I just don’t feel like it.  So, instead, my family got a me a HP 15, in red, for my birthday.  Someday, when I’m done with school and making the big buck, I plan to get an i7 or better computer, but for now, I’m very happy.  I like the feel of the keys while I’m typing, it has handled multiple applications with ease, and Windows 8.1 isn’t as bad a I thought it would be.  Of course, nothing could be as bad Vista.  Anyway, here’s hoping my life gets back to some kind of normal soon.

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I’ve Graduated!

Look out everyone, I am officially a graduate nurse. I still have sit for my boards, but the worst is over. 🙂

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Shiny!

Awesome

Okay, so I found an app for my iPad from WordPress. It is so cool. Just trying it out, to make sure that I have one more way to stress myself out this upcoming semester. Hehehe.

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Shiny!

It a New Year!!

Well, 12/21/12 came and went very quietly for my family.  No explosions, no blinding white light to walk into, and no earth crumbling under my feet.  Kind of a let down.  I was almost hoping I was wrong.  Oh, well, back to work.

I finished my seventh semester (third nursing semester) and have one left to go.  I am so looking forward to graduating and moving on.  This last semester was brutal, thanks in part to a medication issue that caused my heart to attempt to jump through my sternum several times a day.  It got corrected, but I so could’ve done with out that.

I start again in January and will be at another new hospital for my final rotation.  ICU this time.  Have to say, I am just a tad nervous.  I’m trying to keep my eyes on the prize on the other side of the semester – which include graduating, sitting for the exam for my license, and finally, finally, having a chance to write again.  I so miss writing.

How did everyone else year go?  Did you write?  Did you finish your masterpiece?  Did you get published?

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Shiny!

What?

So, I know I have been neglecting my duties lately.  I came here to check and see my last post was in JUNE!!  Are you freaking kidding me?  It’s been that long since I’ve written anything?

No wonder I feel so amazingly crazy at this point.  Classes are just rolling along – like a log.  Many times this semester I have felt like I was under that log.  Just a couple more weeks.

On the plus side, I had a chance to visit a place I wrote about in my second novel.  In the story, it was abandoned and taken over by the military, but in real life, it is still functioning as a state hospital.  I spent the whole first day inside pointing out to another student how this hallway is exactly what I saw in my head and this stairwell would be the one in this scene.  I’m pretty sure I sounded bonkers, but it was the most awesome thing I have experienced in a long while.  With a few minor exceptions, it was exactly as I had envisioned for my story.

On a side note – since I can’t write due to nursing school obligations – when I do get a moment of time, I’ve been watching Doctor Who.  Have to say, I am a huge fan of the tenth doctor.  Can’t believe I didn’t watch this before.

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Shiny!!!

Spurt, Spurt

So, I had a spurt of writing, which felt great.  Then, camping and my kids schedule changes at the end of the year got in the way.  Life.  Again.  Ugh.  Anyway, I’m still working on the story, if only in my head.  I did start re-reading the first book to make sure I am staying consistent.  It’s not writing, but it helps to keep the story moving.  Plus, now that I have a better idea of where the story moved to after I finished the first book, I can fix small issues in the first one.  That’s a good thing, right?  Well, I’m off to write at least one scene.  I will get through it tonight.  I promise.

Shiny!

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Another Semester Down

So, I’ve finished another semester.  It seems like I’m repeating myself and have been for years.  The good news it that I only have 2 semesters left.  The bad news – I think these next 2 semesters are going to be hell.  In the mean time – I have updated the Word Count Union page.  Sorry to everyone that was looking for fresh posts and not seeing them.  I also plan on writing over the break.  I miss it.  Lord knows I need the escape.  It will be good.  How is writing going for everyone else?

I managed an 89.35% this semester, which I fought hard for so I’m happy.  I hope I can keep it up.  Does anyone have any study tips out there?  My brain is mush.

Shiny.

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